Category Archives: Day to day journal/blog

Contains stuff about my day to day – recent experiences. Things I want to share or just write out.

Dealing with self-talk and nastiness

Posted on November 16, 2011 by Larys Kaziukonis

Ok so back-chat — as I’ve noticed — is pretty much the same thing as facing people that are plainly nasty. And what I mean by that, is when you face people, that simply try to say or do something … Continue reading →

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Inferiority and self-trust

Posted on April 16, 2011 by Larys Kaziukonis

Inferiority as I experience and have experienced it, is like this seemingly strong or overwhelming feeling, that only comes up in relation to certain points. Especially to the stuff I haven’t proved to myself yet. And that point of ‘proving … Continue reading →

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Heaviness building when being at school

Posted on March 13, 2011 by Larys Kaziukonis

I’ve found a fascinating point within the resistance I would experience especially at the last hours of being at school usually. The fascinating point is that I’ve only experienced this very specific almost physical experience of drowsiness/sleepiness connected to this … Continue reading →

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Competition and wanting to be perceived a certain way

Posted on March 4, 2011 by Larys Kaziukonis

I’ve always perceived myself, rather as, someone, that doesn’t ‘have to’ prove anything, because personally to myself I didn’t felt like having to prove anything to myself. Yet there has been within me this point of ‘split’ as that what … Continue reading →

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Feeling ashamed because of not knowing something

Posted on March 1, 2011 by Larys Kaziukonis

Feeling ashamed because of not knowing something — is a point that I’ve experienced quite often. And memories of such situations, where I was ashamed of not knowing something come back especially to my childhood were I was learning everything … Continue reading →

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Reacting within myself after ‘loosing myself in thoughts’

Posted on February 3, 2011 by Larys Kaziukonis

I’ve just noticed that within me, that I allow myself to feel guilt, or this point of blame to and towards myself, and have an experience of myself as self-blame and very slight/subtle experiences of: anger/irritation/frustration, helplessness and disappointment — … Continue reading →

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Mind-fucks caused by not taking self-responsibility completely in relation to a certain matter

Posted on January 22, 2011 by Larys Kaziukonis

OK, so I’ve noticed an interesting thing within myself, that the points I have judged myself upon and created mind-fucks about — in terms of judging myself and perceiving as ‘not good enough’ or ‘ineffective’ — have within themselves or … Continue reading →

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Hiding behind a position of superiority when sharing points of insecurity

Posted on December 29, 2010 by Larys Kaziukonis

I’ve noticed this point, within talking with a buddy of mine, on a messenger that I have this point, when describing something I haven’t yet sorted out, to want to automatically present an issue, in a way like I am … Continue reading →

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Picture & Shape — separation through sexuality

Posted on December 19, 2010 by Larys Kaziukonis

I have noticed myself, to define myself, through believing that women are somewhat different then me — lol. I have, through my life held to that belief that women are different, because of the point of desire for a picture … Continue reading →

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Self-judgment on the point of expression/participation/work

Posted on December 15, 2010 by Larys Kaziukonis

It’s a cool point that I have noticed within myself, where I have looked why I am not willing to do something, or I procrastinate it, or that I perceive that “I am not ready yet”. I’ve noticed that I … Continue reading →

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Category Archives: Day to day journal/blog

Dealing with self-talk and nastiness

Inferiority and self-trust

Heaviness building when being at school

Feeling ashamed because of not knowing something

Reacting within myself after ‘loosing myself in thoughts’

Mind-fucks caused by not taking self-responsibility completely in relation to a certain matter

Hiding behind a position of superiority when sharing points of insecurity

Picture & Shape — separation through sexuality

Self-judgment on the point of expression/participation/work

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