Sharing this point that I’ve realized about the issue of overeating, meaning ‘eating’ not from physical point of getting the proper nutrition, but as a point of stimulation as ‘feeding the mind’ through the experience of eating in an addictive manner — where the food is actually eaten from the perspective of giving oneself a ‘treat’ or just for the experience of eating, as some kind of stimulation to ‘feel better’.
I have participated in that, to just ‘eat’ because I ‘feel like’ eating, and sometimes stuffing myself (overeating) just because I felt an ‘urge’ to eat, that wasn’t actually dictated by hunger in terms of my body needing nutrition, but just to ‘feel better’. So what I’ve realized within this is basically that the point where I want to through eating feed myself energetically within my mind, where I eat to ‘feed my mind’ so to speak — is based in self-victimization.
Now let me explain why and what I mean by that exactly. The point why I used to go and ‘overeat’ myself — eat from the perspective of getting an energetic experience within myself through the mind — is because I felt an urge to do it, but the urge was always based on giving myself something in terms of some kind of ‘recompensation’ for something. Like for what I believed/perceived I cannot have, or that shouldn’t happen, or that ‘I deserve this recompensation, because of certain reasons as events and experienced happening — and therefore the starting point within this point of compensating something, through an energetic experience of the mind I would get from eating was based on a starting point of self-victimization.
Therefore in such an accepted starting point of myself as self-victimization I would ‘stuff myself’ as an act of ‘compensating’ something that I believed that I should get, or that I haven’t got — but basically all those reasons for overeating where based on self-victimization. It is no wonder then, that overeating creates a state of self-victimization furthermore — as someone who gets into such a cycle is then totally self-victimizing oneself, as I would because of gaining weight, and ‘not being able to help myself’. Which are things that present the very same point of self-victimization, as a person is feeling helpless to what is being done by self unto self (in gaining weight and abusing one owns body) as well as in taking away one’s own power, through self-victimizing oneself — that ‘I cannot even stop myself’. Which is the essence of self-victimization, as ‘I am helpless’ (“hell-please” — as if asking for hell for oneself) and ‘unable to do anything with what is being done unto me’ as in hell — yet the thing is that this ‘hell’ is self-inflicted.
That’s why this is self-victimization, as self is making a victim out of self, totally. In conviction (“con-victim”) that ‘I cannot stop myself’ – where one is conning self into being a victim. Where in actuality, through abusing the physical through our mind — we are the victim of our own con. A con which start within the con of the mind as ‘con-sciousness’ — where we believe that we know, and we have so much conviction (“con-victim”) of who to blame and who is the victim… (which is all a ‘con’ that we make up for ourselves). Where through conning ourselves and others we end up ‘loosing’ ourselves in our own delusion (“del-loosing”) wherein we attempt to ‘delete’ from our eyes that we’re actually ‘loosing’ ourselves, and ‘loosing’ in the game that we think we can win through giving all our power to the mind, holding to all kinds of creations and constructs of the mind, in shape of believes, fears, gods, self-justifications, self-definitions, ideas about reality, beliefs about the world, world views, fears and justifications. Which are just ‘conjured up’ in the mind, to not face reality, and to help us sustain our personal perceived position, safety and power.
Therefore I suggest — deal with the mind, as it’s a ‘two-edged’ blade, which actually always lead to destruction and deterioration as it runs rampant within which we actually trap ourselves without even realizing it — and how we do it in every moment of our lives. Wherein we constantly and continuously all individually self-victimize ourselves, and live in self-victimization, constantly blaming something or someone (including ourselves — trapping ourselves into guilt) — without actually understanding and realizing how we are taking part in everything that constitutes our individual experience as well as each and every being in this world — as a whole.
Investigate Desteni, Desteni I Process and Equal Money, as we are busy with taking self-responsibility as one and equal to and as all that exist here — to actually realize who and what we are here, how we affect everything and thus also how we are able to change and have an impact on our lives and the world — through self-honesty and establishment of a new economic system, that would include and take care of ALL equally and as one.